Struggling with Endometriosis | The Fashion Muse

Tuesday, October 2, 2018

Struggling with Endometriosis


Today's post is a little more on the personal end rather than a outfit or beauty post. I really do enjoy the lifestyle side of blogging because it sheds light into the more personal side of my life. A few months back when I published my post on my struggles with anxiety, I received an endless amount of feedback from you all that I would have never imagined. I came at peace knowing that I was never going to be alone in what I struggled in, there was always going to be someone who is going through the same thing or maybe surpassed it all and already went through it. 


With that said, a month ago I opened up on my Instagram stories and expressed why I had been a little missing in action over on my social platforms, I just hadn't been feeling well for months and months and months….. 

Disclaimer: this is just my experience. What may work for me, may not work for you.


It's been a little over a year that I have just not felt like my self (physically, mentally, and emotionally) but most physically. I have ALWAYS been open about my struggles with Aunt Flo - for a lack of better words. It's something that started off normal, and started getting worse with time. 


The feeling of being nauseous, aching, and moody during Flo's monthly visit was something I was used to (I mean, what girl isn't?). My symptoms just started increasing as months went by, and I found myself one night blindsided by one of the worst migraines I had ever experienced in my 25 years of life. This migraine would have been easy if it would have just visited my body alone.... But, it brought some undesired company. With the pain I felt, I couldn't stop throwing up and got to a point that my eye site was going in and out as I laid in bed. It was when I tried to get up and cool off in the shower, where I almost blacked out and fainted - I knew something was wrong. 


I found myself at my OBGYN's office a couple days later to find out that I had the beginnings of something called Endometriosis. 


It has been a very long process to get to the point of finding out what I actually had. I went through 3 different brands of birth control to see if it would help with the pain and easy the process. Many of those brands either made me sick or made the ones around me sick because of the terrible b**** it made me.... I also found myself in a bit of a funk with depression, and I am someone who has only struggled with anxiety in life, but never depression. I was constantly sad and angered and I did not understand why. During some moments, I was so down that I questioned so many things that were always beneficial things to my life. It was the damn birth control pills that were doing this to me....


When I found myself at the doctors, not only did we find out about my Endometriosis, but we found a baseball sized cyst growing on my ovary. It was something that birth control could diminish on it's own without having to get a minor surgery to remove the cyst. Gladly, that cyst did disappear within a months time of taking the birth control. 


Endometriosis was something I had already researched on my own, even before my doctor told me about it. It was a scary thought for me, because eventually if Endometriosis isn't treated it could result in infertility and many other unwanted factors. I'm not going to go into major detail on what it exactly is, TMI. 



Trusting God's plan for myself is something  I started believing in more when all this came around. It's HIS plan, and it's HIS vision for me and my life - and I can only trust that. If infertility problems would arise when that time came, it was something I would leave in HIS hands. 


For the moment, I am doing so much better. My doctor was really comforting and explained to me how many woman suffer of this and there is an ending resolution to it all. We came to strategize and figure out what would work for me, and so far the plan has been working out perfectly. 


It was really important for me to put this post out, because I KNOW many of you as women could be struggling with something similar or If not the same and I want you to know that you're not alone. 


I was reached out to by so many of you ladies who had so many questions on this and even were intrigued by what was going on with my health because they were also going through the same thing and hadn't been brave enough yet to go and visit a doctor about it. 



Some times we fall to things we would never expected and it's a matter of having that confidence to get up and say it'll all be OK. Trust the process. 

Until next post, 

Xo
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